“life will be better in spring”

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one week passed
ok.. slightly more than one week..
he finally did it.
and so my fb went from in a r/s with xxx
to in a r/s
that's when i know.
he did it. he ended it all
with that click of a mouse
everything is back at square one again
who says being the one to initiate wont leave u with a bruised heart?
it hurts. more than ath else to be the initiator
and the racking guilt
even though i keep telling myself its not my fault
it eventually is isnt it?
i'm the one who goes ard breaking other's heart
why oh why is it so hard to be a good person?
but this time, there's no ranting and raving
at least for now
i wont know the future
and who knows what will break my heart then?

emo shit. i have to stop emoing now.
but i cant seem to.
beneath the facade lies the guilt ridden body
and that will be where the guilty shall lay
and where it shall be till the end of time
surfacing only at chance to rear its head and remind me of the guilt


on to better topics, slightly better
sunday went for facial
so my face is rid of pimples
at least for now
thinking that i wld be late for facial, i ran after a bus
trip and fell over a curb
and missed the bus
nice
in the end the facial side called me and say they have to delay my appointment by 15 mins
which was ample time for me to get there
sigh
trip and fell and hurt my arm and palms
ow...
but its all much better now
cos its just abrasions
since sharon is a strong and brave girl,
all these abrasions are nothing and i will not show much signs of it being painful
actually, my cognitive pain pathway isnt working well..
i keep bumping my injured parts into things :x
so the pain isnt helping me keep my injury away from harm
but rather attract more harm to it -.-"
hopefully itll get better soon
so i can do my pineapple tarts.
HAHA :D