“life will be better in spring”

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there are times where u get real caught up in the issues of ur friends
especially in love issues.
u just want to help them tide over it
but then they seem to be unwilling to move on
what can u do?
sigh..

there's just so much within my power to help
or even advice
and i guess, most of the time,
the other party also knows those advice
yes. i do admit
advising is easier than doing (as the saying goes, easier said than done)
but i did not say it was easy in the first place
all i ask is for you to try and move on
and not dwell and go back and harp on the facts that has already been turned into history
doesnt just breaks my heart, it breaks the others hearts too
and u do know that but u just continue on

emoing may not necessarily be a bad thing
it allows u to sort out ur thoughts while u do that
cos u dwell on things and think things through
but if it causes you to be in a downward spiral
is that a good thing then?
if it causes you to neglect the other aspects of your life
or if it becomes an all-consuming thought
then do u still allow yourself to wallow in this frame of mind? in this self-pity?

many things i cannot answer..
they have to find it out themselves
but yet, everytime i do hope they have the courage to find it out
they just retreat back into their shells
its not as if i've not been through all these
i just dont show to others
neither do i allow it to consume me
making me non-functional for a long while
that is not how i live my life
and that i think, should not be how others live too
letting themselves get trampled over is not a must
its an option, a choice that you choose

and everytime a friend just does that to themselves
my heart aches
and i cant help unless they are willing to help themselves out of this ditch
it comes to a point that its tiring trying to uplift their mood
its tiring to everyday constantly pull a person out of the ditch
in which minutes later, they fall right back in again
maybe its time for me to stop.
cos all these are affecting me too
i have my problems too
i'm not the happy bubbly girl that u see always
i have troubles
i have reserves
and most of all, i do emo abt stuff
and seeing another person emo abt the exact same stuff is not a pleasant experience
the wound just opens once more

i think its time to let go for a while
when i'm, ready
i/ll come back to you and try once more
but before that, i need to recuperate...