“life will be better in spring”

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just perhaps, i'm not trying hard enough.
just perhaps, i am a rather lousy friend
i seem to demand a lot from people around me
and yet i do not seem to do the same for them..
so who am i to request or make such demands
one by one, they are slowly leaving
and it feels to me that i'm still standing here.
stuck to the ground, which refuses to budge for me.
am i pushing my friends away?
or am i trying to hold on to them?
a prickly porcupine..
and no matter how tired i am,
i will still try again.
one more time..
this time, maybe i will be able to touch your heart
and hold on the that hand of yours..